在想日研課的論文題目的時間

對自己引起了一連串的問題

看了一篇寫愛情的文章後更不明白了

          "altruism at the centre of love ... concern with what is good for them (another person) directs

           our actions just as readily as concern with what is good for us..."

           "but altruism sometimes gets a bad name...in which people, especially women,

             can 'love too much' "

原來, 愛情從很久以前

其中一方愛太多是很平常的事

我在想為什麼

從頭開始想

i have always been told that when acting out of love, i should never expect anything for return

that's called unconditional love

but between two people, in a relationship, is that unconditional love or not?

if yes, whenever i am acting out for the good of my loved one

i shall not think of getting any person who will act out of love for me because of what i have done for him

if so, it's damn difficult but not impossible

if not,

then perhaps this explains why one in the relationship is thought of being love too much

we do what we think will make the other happy/loved

but the other perhaps have another concept of how to express their feelings/make us happy

this difference creates the situation where one is seen as love too much

but in fact,

female's and male's concept of being loved/happy is so very different

there is bound to be one that gets hurt in the relationship

thought of love too much

how painful is that?

personal application into the theory...

somehow

educated by whoever

or just the person i am

when i love you or miss you

i will say it

no matter if i was standing right next to you

or that i have just left you 2 minutes ago

i will say it

'cause this is my belief of expressing my immediate feelings

that's the only way of dealing with such feelings

those feelings that will make my heart leaps, aches and my tears to roll down in 1 second

because i just want to make sure you know i love you and miss you every second since i fell in love for you

need to ensure you understand and feel it fully in case i die tonight

it hurts

that i have to ask

i dont know if it is merely because our differences in concepts of expressing love

or feelings are just too difficult to say aloud

that's the story behind

" it's scary to know that i value you so much "

so anyone wants to enlighten me?

'cause im puzzled

too much on my mind

not able to organize in sensible way

快跟著我一起保護地球 從今以後
不用想太多 只要大聲說 Oh yeah

我想做的 永遠都跟不上改變
改變需要勇氣面對

不知道該說什麼　讓你懂
希望時間能夠　替我說

就決定了　我們要用微笑面對
就算惡夢包圍整個世界
請別走開　愛一直在
你身邊

跟好友聊了一陣子後

突然感覺很有活著的感覺

跟話題有關

       感覺自己很渺小

       不知自己未來要追求的是什麼

                                                       大概是這樣

大概是過了幾天的情緒低潮

是往上的時候了

跟 菇 相反的

她過了四天的興奮

進入了醒覺期

多無助的感覺

我想我也有過

進化是困難的

是無助的

只有時間才可能再會有值得的感覺

人都是這樣

誰又會是真的屬於一個地方呢?

一直都是身邊的人和事把一個人留在一個地方

若可把這些都放下, 或放進口袋一起離開

人都是周圍走

去看看世界吧

羨慕一峰

=)

題外話

sammi若真的把演唱會變成福音音樂會

我還是想去聽

聽過sammi moov live的話

想你會明白

用心唱的

都是動聽的

再題外話

kary的新專輯

我聽了一遍

我現在去買

閉上眼聽的歌 (也需要, 因為片子不太好 )

這天蠍的聲音, 不得了

重溫一下, 等不了